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Justin AKA EMO SPICE AKA "Lovebug" AKA J-Money
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[23 Mar 2006|05:36am] |
why the fuck is this so hard?
you think you're so fucking strong..and you let your guard down.
fuck this I just want to be happy.
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[18 Mar 2006|05:28pm] |
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Saves the Day "Sell All My Clothes, I'm off to Heaven" |
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that you're such a manly man..that you could pick up pretty much any girl that you want to. reality sets in.
not going to lie. there have been more than a couple of girls that have sprung interest in me in the past couple of months..but none of them are "there" you know...what I NEED in a gf or relationship. So I haven't really liked LIKED a girl in a while. I've been attracted to and talked to more girls than I can even remember.
then this one comes along. and the way she looks at you and smiles at you and moves with you. how her hugs are way more amazing than anybody elses. and the way she was so excited to see me once that she jumped in my arms.
you believe that this all means something.
but it doesn't.
all she sees you is as a friend.
and things between you and her are like this because she sees you as a great friend.
I have a feeling she thinks I'm going to hurt her.
the perception of me precedes me.
fuck, I guess I'm just another scumbag lead singer.
and it's never going to happen.
EVER.
and now I'm ready to move on.
it shouldn't be long.
it's just going to be hard at first.
there are plenty of girls in the sea, as I always say.
I just needed to vent.
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| may angels lead you in. |
[31 Jan 2006|05:07am] |
I've been incredibly selfish over the past couple of months..
I'm not going to lie to anyone..I've neglected my family. neglected many people that should mean the most to me...
Last week my grandfather passed away.
Along with my parents he raised me.
I cried the night he passed away, when we all visited him for the last time.
but haven't since. I've been away from family doing my own thing like I always do.
Sometimes i can be so selfish..avoiding whats most important...
tonight I came upon a picture of my grandfather...the last year of his life he did not look this way at all. it made me remember the man that raised me...the man that molded me into the man I am now...
and I miss him so dearly. as I sit feet away from the room that used to be his..I can't help but shed all these tears.
So many memories of him...too many to write down..but enough to remember how important he is to me...I've put this guard up...it may finally be coming down.
Papa, I miss you with all my heart...even though I may not show it.
-Justin
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| So much has changed...this life is moving too fast for me to sit down and document it. |
[10 Jan 2006|02:12am] |
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haha..wow...
I've been busy real busy...sometimes I think I'm exhausting myself..but I can't just sit here and do nothing all day..I've always gotta be doing something.
what have I been doing with my life?
+work...work is always there...growing tired of it..but hanging in there..I really don't know where I'd be able to get a new job making the same amount that I do and looking the way that I do..so I'll just stick around for at least a while longer.
+the band. I love the band. at times there is tension in the band but that's when I look to our manager Vince to sort things out. He's kinda my big brother that's younger than me. We recorded all instrumentals then my stupid ass had to get sick so I couldn't do instrumentals.
+friendships: as far as I'm concerned I have the best friends in the world. I've got different friends for different situations and it's crazy. And I keep making new friends every day... fuckk, not the same introvert. I can be an introvert but I'm so much more out in the open now. I love meeting new people.
+ girls? ahh my favorite subject..I change the girl situation more than I change my contact lenses. I'm picky...really picky and if I choose to date someone it's going to be someone right. I've gotten a whole lot better at meeting girls and all that stuff. And there are girls out there who believe it or not are kinda trying to be all up on me..but that's not how I roll..I'm not a whore. I need substance.
+ clubs? I spend more time at clubs then I should..but whatever. I'm young it's fun. I love dancing. I love meeting people. I like checking out shorties...it's what I do...
So lately, I've been listening to more mellow music..like indy and electro and all that good stuff..kinda growing sick of the hardcore stuff since we play it and are constantly surrounded by that.
I really want to start an indy/electro project soon...like real soon.
I've found this confidence in me recently...and figured I could do a lot of things that I never thought I could. I've been looking into myself a lot lately and I believe I could do whatever I want if I just put my mind and heart to it.
I laugh at the past and look forward to the future. this is me. I'm finally becoming the person I've always wanted to be. and all I want in life now is to find that special someone and perhaps make music my career.
this song goes out to you. it's the story of my life.
Panic! at the Disco "There's A Good Reason These Tables Are Numbered Honey, You Just Haven't Thought Of It Yet"
Please leave all overcoats, canes, and top hats with the doorman
And from that moment, you'll be out of place and underdressed
I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it
Ruining this banquet for the mildly inspiring and
Please leave all overcoats, canes, and top hats with the doorman
And from that moment, you'll be out of place and underdressed
I'm wrecking this evening already and loving every minute of it
Ruining this banquet for the mildly inspiring and
When you're in black slacks with accentuating off-white pinstripes, whoa-oh
Everything goes according to plan
I'm the new cancer, never looked better
And you can't stand it
I know because you say so under your breath
You're reading lips, "When did he get at all confident?"
Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
Never looked better
And you can't stand it
Next is a trip to the ladies room in vain
I bet you just can't keep up with these fashionistas
Tonight, tonight, you are, you are the whispering campaign
To them, your name is "Cheap", and you look like sh--
Talk to the mirror, choke back tears
And keep telling yourself that, "I'm a diva."
Oh, and the smokes in that cigarette box at your table
They just so happen to be laced with nitroglycerin
I'm the new cancer, never looked better
And you can't stand it
I know because you say so under your breath
You're reading lips, "When did he get at all confident?"
Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
Never looked better
And you can't stand it
Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
I've never looked better and you can't stand it
Haven't you heard that I'm the new cancer?
I've never looked better and you can't stand it
And I know, and I know
It just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up
I've never been so surreptitious
So of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch
And I know, and I know
It just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up
I've never been so surreptitious
So of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch
And I know, and I know
It just doesn't feel like a night out with no one sizing you up
I've never been so surreptitious
So of course you'll be distracted when I spike the punch
take care.
-Justin
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[01 Nov 2005|03:18pm] |
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So yeah, I'll admit it....I miss school.
Like a lot. i went to the campus today to pay super late tuition..and yeahh I miss it..shit...it's going to be hard to get back in the swing of things there..but I'm going to try...I mean I've missed out on about half a year of school because I'm stupid. And the only reason I didn't want to go to school anymore because I was affraid of seeing someone..but now I really don't care.
Fuck, I'm already busy as it is with work and band..but I really need to go back to school anyway..I need to hang out with kids my age..haha. and get to hang out with more girls? too bad Cal Poly is pretty horrible in the girl department.
Things with the band are good...we just played our biggest show...things got pretty shitty because the power went out on us TWICE..but it's all good..and we've got a pretty good fanbase in West Covina..We got to play with huge ass bands at Nightmare Fest..it was such a big Fest...definitely fun times..the Dear Life dudes tore it up...we now have a lot of friends in bands that we've payed to see and that we respect so much..it's an amazing feeling...
man....we need to put out a demo already...it's really getting old having to tell people we are demoless...and we really need to get down and do it...that's the most important thing right now.
I can't wait to get out on the road....
I got lighter brown highlights put in my hair with 3 lil patches of dark hot pink at the bottom...it looks pretty cool. That hairdresser was a cutey cutey cute.
Girls are fucking confusing. But I don't stress that much anymore about it. I'm not even really talking to any girls right now...
I need to get really drunk to dance with hot girls at clubs. haha. buttt I'm afraid that they might only be hot because I'm drunk.
I haven't hooked up with a girl since August.
Halloween blewwwwww....never go to Hollywood on Halloween...fuck that. too much traffic...went clubbing and wasn't drunk enough to get dances...fuckkkkk...
RIP John from Bayside.
-Justin
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[16 Oct 2005|08:06pm] |
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Damn, its been the first time in ages where I've just chilled at home..took a nap...damn.
Today after work has been kinda boring..but I kinda like it. Been so fucking busy for so long..it's nice to lay down and not be stressed about anything.
So how has life really been since I've wrote a real entry? Pretty good. The band is exactly where I want it to be..sometimes I think that it's the only thing that is going kinda right for me. Cuz i work a lot...but it's been a drag because we're so understaffed and I'm underappreciated. I do so fucking much for that store...and all I get is that measily paycheck. whatever though. I've almost been working there a year.
The show on Friday was pretty amazing..shared the stage with so many amazing bands...bands that I didn't think we'd be able to play with so early in our careers, but here we are. I've made good friends with some of the members of those bands and it's pretty sick. And the fact that so many of them think that we did pretty good on what I considered an off night is really something that is encouraging. I mean, especially with a band like A Love Ends Suicide, who is arguably the biggest band from our area..and them coming up to ME and telling me how well they thought I did was something special. Especially from the Lead Singer John, who went to our first show ever at Bishop Amat...he told me "I see the difference from now till Amat, and you guys have gotten a lot better"...that feels good. ya know. And like from Vince, who at first didn't seem to fond of our music when he filled in for us, heard our new stuff and really liked it.
We've definitely come a long way in such a short time. I love my boyz...things are going swimmingly. we just need to keep it up.
And hey, we're playing a huuuugeeeee hardcore festival called THE NIGHTMARE FEST...it's going to be amazing...it's really a whose who of hardcore..unbelievable. and I've got a surprise or two up my sleeve.
And I'm really excited because we now have a manager. Vince from Dear Life is taking us on as his first band to manage..and it feels good because he wanted us to prove that we were worthy of it..and I guess we really did because he told Brian even before the show that he was going to do it for us..after almost a month of badgering him...
As for girls...I don't know..thought I was getting better at this whole girl thing. but that really isn't the case. I mean, I'm still picky but I handle things wrong and still have a problem with initiating...so I don't know..I'm kinda whatever now. Let things happen or whatever. I decided to stop talking to girls I was TRYING to talk to..for different reasons. Because I'm picky and if I put time into a girl, I want her to be the best. And she would have to live with the fact that I'm so busy and be supportive of this band and that the band does come as one of my top priorities...that's going to be tough. No one in the band has had an easy time juggling relationships and the band. So I don't really want to jump into anything right now.
I don't want a relationship right now I guess...just want that feeling. I don't know. I'm weird.
oh what a feeling. fuck you, it's better than love. i'm in love and lust at the same time.
-Justin
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[02 Oct 2005|01:23am] |
ahhh man, you're still the same kid no matter what. never going that extra mile. never taking that risk. never taking that chance. then you go home regreting not making that move. not going that extra mile. you always want what you can't have. maybe you can have it, but you never take the chance to see if you can.
story of my life. i had to vent. now i must sleep. work at 6AM..fucking great.
-Justin
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[26 Sep 2005|05:02am] |
+hardcore
+playing music
+80's clubs
+hanging out with new and different people
+band networking
+getting drunk (though I have been drinking less)
+meeting girls (or trying to at least)
+dancing: hardcore & club dancing (and I must say I've gotten a lot better at both)
+working and starting to hate working at Jamba Juice.
+not getting anything for school done.
+flat-ironing my hurrr
+growing my hurrr out again
+falling in lust with more girls than I can even remember
+getting hated on
+spending too much money on gas
+driving
+ "THE QUESTION" BY EMERY...ALBUM OF THE FUCKING YEAR!
pointless.
-Justin
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So...haven't wrote here in a while..a lot of LJ writable stuff has happened...but eh..I've been really busy...yeah... I don't know...life is weird. All I know is that I want my band to be successful, that's the only thing that I know for sure that I want...
here is some of my convo with Anthony...haha
bluesidEup101: she sorta knows that you like her.. and she wants you to tell her
EMOTiONALxROCKER: just tell her
EMOTiONALxROCKER: if she senses it
EMOTiONALxROCKER: then that means shes thought about it
EMOTiONALxROCKER: and is ready to give you an answer
bluesidEup101: BUT SHE HAS A BF
bluesidEup101: al;kejlisjdlfjelajlsdjf
EMOTiONALxROCKER: who gives a fuck
bluesidEup101: i do
EMOTiONALxROCKER: its better to know what the answer is
bluesidEup101: shiet
bluesidEup101: haha
EMOTiONALxROCKER: then to think about what it could be
EMOTiONALxROCKER: and if she doesnt like you back..
EMOTiONALxROCKER: then fuck it.
EMOTiONALxROCKER: there are tons of hot girls in the world
bluesidEup101: haha
EMOTiONALxROCKER: and I'm sure at least 3 of them would want your cock..or your heart..whichever you're thinking from at that point in time
bluesidEup101: hahah
EMOTiONALxROCKER: but seriously man..
EMOTiONALxROCKER: like thats how I'm approaching this girl thing...
EMOTiONALxROCKER: if one doesnt like you back...then who cares...there are others
EMOTiONALxROCKER: or will be others...
EMOTiONALxROCKER: just be patient
EMOTiONALxROCKER: have fun
bluesidEup101: alkjelajsdlfj leajdf
EMOTiONALxROCKER: and in the meantime
EMOTiONALxROCKER: we'll have fun finding girls together
EMOTiONALxROCKER: then we could bang them in the same room and switch
bluesidEup101: hahah shut up
bluesidEup101: you can barely ask girls to dance
EMOTiONALxROCKER: hahaha
EMOTiONALxROCKER: I can when I'm pissed and jealous...can't I?
bluesidEup101: true
this entry was pointless...just felt like I needed to update.
I'm going with Dear Life to Vegas for the weekend..shit is going to be siiiiick.
-Justin
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[18 Aug 2005|02:04pm] |
This song kinda applies to something that happened recently with me..not fully..but there are definitely things in it that made me go "oh"...heh.
Bright Eyes "Lua"
I know that it is freezing, but I think we have to walk
I keep waving at the
taxis, they keep turning their lights off
But Julie knows a party at some
actor's West side loft
Supplies are endless in the evening by the morning
they'll be gone
When everything is lonely I can be my own best
friend
I'll get a coffee and the paper, have my own conversations
with the
sidewalk and the pigeons and my window reflection
The mask I polish in the
evening by the morning looks like shit
And I know you have a heavy heart,
I can feel it when we kiss
So many men stronger than me have thrown their
backs out trying to lift it
But me I'm not a gamble, you can count on me to
split
The love I sell you in the evening by the morning won't
exist
You're looking skinny like a model with your eyes all painted
black
Just keep going to the bathroom, always say you'll be right
back
Well, it takes one to know one, kid, I think you've got it bad
But
what's so easy in the evening by the morning's such a drag
I got a flask
inside my pocket, we can share it on the train
And if you promise to stay
conscious I will try and do the same
We may die from medication, but we sure
killed all the pain
But what was normal in the evening by the morning seems
insane
And I'm not sure what the trouble was that started all of
this
The reasons all have run away, but the feeling never did
It's not
something I would recommend, but it is one way to live
Cause what is simple
in the moonlight by the morning never is
And what's so simple in the
moonlight now it's so complicated
And what's so simple in the moonlight, so
simple in the moonlight
So simple in the moonlight...
Conor Oberst is my hero.
Well I'm sure we've all heard about the tragic news about Don Gangcuanco. I never really knew him personally, I mean I've seen him around but I still felt like I should pay my respects to him and his family. From what I hear he was a really good guy and it's sad to see one of the good ones leave us. But at least he is with God right now. I visited PJ's house last night with the Manahan's, I haven't seen him in a while. It's kinda sad that since I haven't seen PJ in a while, I had to see him under these circumstances. My prayers go out to him and his family.
-Justin
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[15 Aug 2005|02:05pm] |
I no longer know what I want in my life right now... these past couple days have been full of the downest downs and pretty alright highs..but the downs outweigh it all...
and I'm a broke joke mothafucka...
I feel so.....different.
-Justin
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Have you ever had one of those nights you completely regret?
last night was one of those nights...fuck.
-Justin
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| i've lived a life..since the last time I wrote in here... |
[16 Jul 2005|04:25am] |
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Shes gone...I still can't believe that I won't be seeing her tomorrow...and yes, I miss her already.
It's weird...this entire relationship...my entire life for the past 2 weeks...just so insane...
it's been a wild ride..and I'm ready to bring it down a bit..
since I last wrote in here...
+I went to 2 warped tours, Ventura and Long Beach
+Hung out with my "wifey" Jen practically every day
+got pierced 3 times.
+danced at a To End All Seasons show
+booked another show
+broke "edge"
+drank 6 out of 7 nights
+didn't come home for 2 of those nights
+had a vacation from work
+got an unexpected call from an ex
+dropped my wifey off at the airport..and now she's gone and won't be back..for a very long while.
+got emo..just for tonight at least. No crying though..hahah, I'm not that emo anymore.
No, I don't have a girlfriend..it isnt even a relationship(and I know that we probably never will have a relationship like THAT)..we weren't dating.. hmm, I just like this girl..and yeah, it feels like we are closer than just regular friends..but I don't know..it's so weird. All I know is that I'm going to miss her..I never knew I could grow so attached to someone in such a short span...interesting has been an understatement.
Today at the airport was just so Garden State (airport scene) to me....geez..I even told her that..ahh man, I'll be okay..
fuck I've been livin' la vida loca..and it's time to settle down...I'm fucking exhausted...party'd hard..and yeah man....sleepy time.
she loves me
she loves me not.
-Justin
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[01 Jul 2005|02:05am] |
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My old entries make me wanna vomit.
Yes, it's been a year...I've been single for a year. Single, not alone. And if I do say so for myself..I'm doing a fuckload better than I was a year ago. I feel that I'm such a better person than I was a year ago. I swear, I'm so much different. So much more care-free. And I don't close myself off like I used to so much before.
I've even become (with lack of a better word) resentful towards some of the people closest to me for letting me go on the way I did. I mean people were always supportive but never told me "you know what Justin, what the fuck? you shouldn't be killing yourself over this"... And yeah, thinking about it now... I was stupid..so much younger so much stupider...I can't believe I let myself fall so fast for what? fucking nothing. I've learned so much about the bullshit that is a "relationship" and yeah...haha..I've grown so much. You could even say, grown so much colder.
And what a difference a year makes...holy shit, I feel..wow..just wow. I've accomplished quite a bit in a year...it's been amazing...I'm never ever bored...I'm always busy...geez man.
I've got my band...and we play shows..it's fucking amazing...best feeling ever..fuck yeah. And it's not a fake ass feeling like I had when I was in "love"..I'd definitely rather be on stage over being in a relationship anyday..and if there is a conflict there..you better believe I'm choosing my music over any girl..
And I've got my friends...ABOVE ALL I've got my friends and family and they've been fucking amazing. The support I got from Raul when I was really badly depressed really got me through and yeah man..I love my friends, if it weren't for them..then I wouldn't be the Justin I am today...no way.
but yeah, I'm a fucking soldier..I'm so much stronger. and yes, I'm still single..but this time by choice. Getting a lil lonely..but I'm waiting till my perfect girl comes along..and she has to be perfect..I have high ass standards.
I haven't been writing in this thing much..mostly cuz I'm busy...but a lot of it has to do with the fact that I am happy. happy..
Well I'm going to be busy as shit..
Friday- Try to get into warped at Long Beach
Saturday- The beachhhh...people should go.
Sunday- Warped in Ventura..
yessssssssssss...I love vacation. though I'm BROKE!
-Justin
It used to be so good.
You used to be my everything.
I just want you to
know that I'm just fine on my own.
Do you want me to know that you hate being
alone?
Did you think I would fall for this over again we're repeating.
Did
you think I would crawl back,
crawl back one more time to feel the way I
feel.
How's your hand?
My eyes healed nicely.
How's the time pass by
without me?
I hope this hurts like hell cause why should you be fine?
PS: Johanna on the new real world is fucking bomb. There are so many beautiful women in the world....gosh.
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[18 Jun 2005|08:52pm] |
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Thank you to anyone that came to our show on Tuesday. It was truly amazing seeing how many of our wonderful friends showed up and rocked out with us...you not only shocked us, but the concert promoters...and yeah...it was amazing..
best feeling in the world...ever. And I need to feel it again...because I will.
July 22nd...HEADLINING Chain Reaction..you heard me right HEADLINING..so I hope everyone shows up again..and those that didn't certainly better be there...we'll make it worth your while. I got a general consenus that most people enjoyed our music and our presence..hey we got people to hardcore dance!
Anyway..a band war has begun. Let's just say someone from one of our old bands may be a bit jealous of our early success, and slyly made a reference to us somewhere on the many pages of the internet.
I'm not naming names nor am I going to talk shit...but let me tell you this we are going to HEADLINE our 2nd real show...and not at a shitty venue but Chain Reaction. And it doesn't look like they have any shows coming up. So yeah..
but whatever...it's all good. I'm not sweating it...we are on a really good track right now..I'm so fucking amped...and we SHOULD BE recording next week FINALLY!
I've got no work from this Wednesday to Monday! GO ME!
I can't wait to tear up Chain Reaction again...it's better than sex. Like falling in love for the first time, I can't stop thinking about that feeling.
-Justin
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[14 Jun 2005|12:08pm] |
WE ARE GOING TO FUCKING TEAR CHAIN REACTION UP TONIGHT...be there or be square.
-Justin
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[08 Jun 2005|03:46pm] |
sometimes girls make me want to shoot myself in the face. better yet shoot them in the face.
you'd be cuter if I shot you in the face.
-Justin
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| Let's get fucked up and die. |
[08 Jun 2005|02:52am] |
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I've come to realize that girls are nothing but non-stop drama..and an event didn't need to spark this..just sitting down and thinking about it tonight..I realized it..well I kinda knew that..but more and more, it's becoming fortified.
Well today we went to the beach..it was fun. Too bad Krisell couldn't go because there was no room for her :(
But yeah..I bought 3 albums today. and upon first listen all three are pretty great. I bought Coldplay's "XY" Finch's "Say hello to sunshine" and Motion City Soundtrack's "Commit This to Memory"..all three seem to be fucking awesome.
Here are lyrics to a new Motion City Song. Justin is such an awesome writer. MCS is the shit. This story is kinda the story of my life. Except I don't get fucked up cuz I'm cool and straight-edge. haahahah.
Motion City Soundtrack "Lets Get Fucked Up and Die"
Let's get fucked up and die..
I'm speaking figuratively, of course..
Like
the last time I committed suicide.. social suicide..
Yeah, so I'm already
dead on the inside,
But I can still pretend with my memories and
photographs,
I've learned to love the lie.
I wanna know what it's like
to be awkward and innocent, not belligerent.
I wanna know how it feels to be
useful and pertinent and have common sense..
Let me in, let me in to the
club, cuz I wanna belong,
And I need to get strong, and if memory
serves,
I'm addicted to words and faces.
In this apartment,
Let's
get fucked up and die..
I'm riding hard on the last lines of every
lie,
And the vehement spike of my life is about to explode,
I'm about to
explode.
I'm a mess, I'm a wreck.
I am perfect, and I have learned to
accept all my problems and short comings,
Because I am so visceral, yet
deeply inept.
I want to thank you for being a part of my forget-me-nots
and marigolds..
And all the things that don't get old..
Is it legal to do
this? I surely don't know.
It's the only way I have learned to express myself
around peoples' descriptions of life..
When I'm not free from the law I'm
entirely useless..
In this apartment,
Let's get fucked up and
die.
For the last time I'm feeling, we'll try not to smile
As we cover our
heads and drink heavily into the night
Into shock and surprise.
I believe
that I can overcome this and beat everything in the end
But I chose to refuse
for the time being,
And maybe I'll win, but for the time I've decided to
die.
If I could ever repay you, I would, but I'm all out of cash
And
my memory lacks initiative.
God damn, the liquor stores' closed,
When
I'm so close to scoring that it hurts,
And destroys til it kills..
I am
tired and hungry and totally useless.
that song is so fucking awesome.
-Justin
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| CHAIN REACTION! |
[02 Jun 2005|02:59am] |
Destroying Something Beautiful is playing the legendary CHAIN REACTION in Anaheim. I couldn't be more stoked. I've seen so many bands I LOVE there..it's going to be intense. And you all better be there..suckas!
CHAIN REACTION HERE WE COME!
-Justin
so fucking tired..got school tomorrow..fuck
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Duude..it's almost 4AM and fuck...I'm so tired..the last few days have been full of practice, work, and school..and yeah..it's really wearing me down..but it'll all be worth it playing our first show tomorrow. I'm so excited. At one point at practice today, my chest started hurting. A sign of exhaustion? I don't know...
but yeah, Brian is sleeping over tonight so he won't be fucking late for the show like he always is...
I've been talking to this girl and looking at her myspace she has a boyfriend who leaves her comments about how much he loves her and all that... what the fuck? Why did she start talking to me? Ahh man..I don't know. I never really took it seriously till I started looking at all his comments. And to think she was going to spend the night over here tonight at my sleep-over (which now consist of me and Brian, in seperate rooms of course). But yeah, GIRLS...ACK!...
fuck this shit I'm going to sleep. I want to wake up for McDonald's breakfast. that sounds soo good.
DSB rocking Amat tomorrow..that shit is going to be siiiick.
-Justin
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